overgrown

to be an intelligent female in this world

is more often than not a curse.

it means i am not so likely

to give my heart away but

it is overgrown.

it hasn't made contact with another

for long enough to know its limits:

it is ready.

but it is only ready for greatness,

the all-encompassing consumption that is

falling in love with an equal

and that is hard to do.

i have no interest

in being your play-thing,

a chew-toy, food for thought.

that could never be enough for me

and if you can't discern that

from the orders i subscribe to

then you haven't cut your way in

far enough

for me to extract my heart

and hand it over.

in fact you might be better off

going in yourself

and digging it out

but you should only do it

if you are seriously in search

of me

because

this heart isn't for everybody.

07.2011