for you to stumble upon
when you arrive,
among other things.
he just wants to be remembered,
he just wants you to remember.
he has nothing left to give you.
Daddy can't pull off
being the tough guy anymore;
he wore that out
when he was shaping you to enter the world.
he doesn't know how to hold back
and his soul is terrified
of that helpless feeling that comes
when someone is suddenly, completely
he doesn't know
he'll be forgiven;
he can't find a star to pray on:
he doesn't want to let you go.
Daddy finds difficulty in this
but he'll never let you know
until you're opposite those watery baby blues
watching them shrink into tears
he'll send along ahead for you.
[my father is one of the most compassionate men i've ever known, and because of that he so elegantly inspired a series in my writing. i love writing about him. x]